OMG

2007-10-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

oh and happy halloween. and also happy birthday.

2007-10-31T13:05:00.000+08:00

on a new journey of life
no many days when my secondary school journey ends
ordinary level is already more than half way through
it's this ordinary level that affected me
i studied more than usual
i played less than usual
i put more efforts than usual
i worry even more than usual
i pray more times and harder than usual
now it is time for me to move on.

i starts to enjoy life a bit more.
and of course appreciate things.
sec4 life is so fast.
weixuan will be there to say:'Good Job!'
followed by his pat on the back.
shixiang will be there to worry about everything in the world
weekang will be always be there.
yapseng will be there to fool around.
songyang will be there to find ways to improve himself?
yien will be there to get some space for himself
syjia will be there to praise herself
ziheng will be there studying and top for maths
amirul will be there to sing his favourite songs
ronald will be there to get accused for everything
so on and so fro.

i've been going through a lot.
why bother about how weird people's behaviours are?
why bother to hate him?
people is trying to get attention
thats how some people works
i don't hate him
i still treat him as a mild friend
words shouldn't be so harsh.
why should there be more foes?
it's already the end of the journey
you most likely won't meet him again.

my heart has grown larger
i started to really worry for my family
my fear for no good l1r5 grew.
i've have been trying to talk more.
you may not have a chance.
it's really really good to appreciate.
show more care and concern.
you will really shed tears if one day
they no longer support you.
i'm feeling the depth of my heart.

ordinary level.
urged me to improve english
i've tried. at least a bit.
it improved relations too.
people come together and study.
last time we only come together to play.
i lost focus,
on my computer.
only to think that i'll use it back after the examinations.
it is almost coming to an end.
increasing usage of electricity.
but i still hope i can go mjc.

for me to come this far.
family
friends
teachers.
for a tuition teacher to have the taught me about 7 years,
i really have to show my gratitude to her.
thanks all.

just now i walked past my kindergarten.
i saw the familiar teacher
she was still there.
it's already about 11 plus years.
i felt pleased.

there's a long long way to go.
indeed distant.
for all we'll meet again,
if god let our fate cross for once more.

and to a friend who i've avoided for around 2 months.
i think its really time.
to put things together.
it's the second time and a serious one.
and i'll tell you a secret.

"friendship is not just over a sms"

i will say i love all my friends.
including tuition friends.
have fun for god sake for the rest of your lives.

2007-10-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

my brink

my friend

my partner

my land

my aim

my loneliness, my unhappiness

my life

my road

i'm lacking of something.
my ...

2007-10-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

Let me share a story that somehow relates to my this life at this moment.
it's about two cats.
the first cat had eaten its dinner, and was sitting beside the unfinished food.
so it started looking around to find something to do.
then this other cat came out. it was hungry.
so it sorta approach the resting cat secretly.
the resting cat realised its presence.
and screamed at it.
the hungry cat was a bit scared.
then they stared at each other.
then...
(i shld have took a video of it or something, but it was so exciting that i missed that part)

the resting cat then say: 'aiya, give you eat la. i go somewhere else sit so i cannot see u steal my food.'

but then the resting cat was still abit angry. so it had bloodshot eyes. thats why the picture is abit the orangey.

"sian, don't bother about him already. let him eat ba. i'm kind"

'i tink i better check that he is taking good care of my food and not finishing them all.'

'everything's going fiinnnnn.....zzzzz'

so one continued eating while the other dozed off.

'i'm done! so full! so bored. i thot i going to fight him.grrrr.. '

so the food was left at where it was.........

*end*

so how was it? one approach the other. then the other one not happy, distant from the hungry one. finally the hungry one walk away, the cats left the food behind.
even if the sleeping cat woke up, the no longer hungry cat will not look for him anymore..

2007-10-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

new blogskin. yay. laallalalala~~~OMGOMG.

i won't give way.
should i be benevolent?
what am i talking?
why shld i?
i've got my personality too.
i'm stubborn
what can u dO?

OMGOMG. jiana
old blog- insanitydrz-jvly3.blogspot.com

2007-09-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

I had a weird dream too. i mean just like weixuan, however the story is very different, and funny, but a bit the... Once i get to the story, maybe you'll get it. The dream started something like that...(its quite a long dream..)

My brother and i are the only left in the house. Suddenly, the earth shook. Supposingly to be an earthquake, but news travelled so fast, and people were running about. It ended up with an asteroid strike, as in meteor strike. then people started evacuating and assembled at the basketball court next to my block of flats, just like how we assemble in the school's assembly plaza. We, being still very young(in the dream), dallied our way down. Anyway i live on the 2nd storey. Then, in a blink of an eye, a second meteor strike! TO MY HORROR, it was a direct hit onto the basketball court. (Assuming that the meteroids are small) The meteroid hit onto the building first, so the building collapsed. However, the debris were dropped to one side of the building, and only left the 2nd floor partially damaged. the third floor was half-detached.(something like an egg cracked into halves and with jagged sides).

I looked out of the window facing the court, there was this huge rock with hundred of crushed bodies beneath it. then i turned back and looked at the badly cracked celling. We decided to pack our things before evacuating from the building. the celling was almost collapsing when we finished. we headed for the road to hail a cab. (we were actually expecting a taxi, and supposed to pay for the taxi fares) then, my brother suddenly jolted, he forgot to get something, leaving his 'luggage', he ran home. i followed him. then the luggages were left, not by the road but on the road.

He was searching for his thing.( i also dont know). i was asked to go back to look after the luggages. To my astonishment, our luggages were separated. Fortunately, my luggage was still in vision, but my brother's one was not. It was like the road was movable or some sorta, like the 'travelator' in the airport where our luggages are being moved around. So, i went searching up and down for the missing luggage. And it was just Up and Down, along the same road. then....i guess i woke up, because i couldn't find it and was anxious.

Dreams... belivable or unbelivable? Sometimes you dreamt of something, but when you woke up, you forgot. however, many many days later, there may be scenes where you felt like you had seen it before. Or maybe for me only. It's like...my dream came true or something. ok, dream as in what i dreamt when i slept and not what i want to achieve. Just something i experienced. Well, for those that you can remember, they will not come true. Most of them are illogical, senseless, totally nonsense.

Back the reality. The earth is really dying. the world's coming to an end. Please make an effort to save the Earth. Copied from MrTan: cannot wait for Christmas or HariRaya or whatever festivals, they are arriving. So, what are the people in the world waiting for? Everyone's waiting for DOOM DAY.

Global issues on global warming. United States and Australia did not sign the whatever policy to reduce emission of CO2 or whatever other shit. they are selfish, in fact everyone is selfish. hey, i'm not. i'm making efforts to reduce GW. i don;t have air-conditioner at home at the very least.
Did you know that Greenland, a large piece of icy land mass above Russia, WAS too cold to grow crops? However, it's in the Straits Times, potatoes can be grown healthily and large there! The glaciers are retreating, and the World will of course and definitely not be lacked of water supply. More earthquakes, more cyclones/hurricanes and tornadoes, more forest fires, etc.

Only WEIXUAN, the World Saver can save the Earth, consult him plEASE!

2007-09-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the first day of marking day. i went out with some of my schoolmates to MarinaSquare GV to catch a movie, ratatouille. we met up with one another before the final decision of the movie. this hilarious thing is that Terence who had watched the movie, spent 7dollars to go into the theatre to play his DS.

the movie was somewhat funny, somewhat sad, somewhat interesting. Not too bad for being a rat. We headed off to play bowling, 2 rounds. on the second round, i'd got a good start with a strike. however, i was not able to win the others. but it was fun though, since i had not play bowling for some time. then we went to the arcade. i kept my hands off these machines. so, i just watched people play, and imagine myself playing, thats all. Time flies, and They had dinner while i watched them eat.

Sadly, all good things come to an end. I left the group for my tuition. In fact, i left abit earlier because i wanted to be alone for a while. Calmming myself by the Singapore River, i felt the breeze. i visited the Esplanade with solitude, i chose it. Feel the breeze, watch the waves, look at the crowded areas around the Merlion. Gave a smile and realised i'd emo-ed my time away. Time to turn back into reality, headed for the Mrt station. Along the CityLink, i visited MPH, and HMVs i guess. Time's up, time for tuition.

Nothing much during tuition. i was expecting her. well, perhaps i didnt get my dates correct. we did the Anglican High prelimary examination 2007 Chemistry Mcq, not bad. then there's this girl called Cheryl, (if i didnt spell wrong) still having her examinations. Everyone was told to ask her one question. And, i asked:' How do you test for sulphur dioxide?' Apparently, she isn't that good in Chemistry( she studies combined science if i'm not wrong). In the class, there is this SMART alec. The moment I questioned, he boastfully said that the question is so simple. well, to an extent, it may be simple. He was inconsiderate. He may be smart, but i wonder if he had ever wondered whether there are people who are not as smart as him? Anyway, the class started making noises the moment i questioned, so his comments may had been made inaudible, but i heard it loud and clear.

His turn to question her. His question: which factor that affects the rate of reaction, causes the most effect in the rate?

Anyone bothers to answer? in my tagboard.
Anyway that ends the fun day. And i made the decision to go to work the next morning.
It's quite a bored and tiring day today. i spent 5 hours cutting the cardboard papers. there were so many of them. for very big piece of the cardboard, cut into rectangles with width 16.5 inches. then the 16.5 inches papers were further cut into 1.65 inches. i was standing the whole time. Next job, something i'd done before, turning nuts into screws etc, for another 3.5 hours. at the end, my hands were stained with the 'oils' of the metal. Time to go home and catch the last episode of ....i dont know what's the name of the show. forget it.

Tomorrow i have to work again. tomorrow is my Great Grandmother's BirthdaY!

Happy birthday to her here.
And happy day for everyone tomorrow.

2007-09-11T17:20:00.000+08:00

Hello, i'm back after so many retarded news in my posts. There's some thing that i cannot get over with. i'm being too sensitive. i can't imagine myself getting worked up with the trivial things. how ever small, how ever trivial the matter is, i just cant stand it. i know that i am an insignficant person, but there is no need to look at me with your that kind of eyes.

What a pathetic way of discriminating people. PATHETIC! is the word.

It has been quite a while since the last with weixuan i guess. maybe i'm a very irritating person. Do you not agree? perhaps i really am.

since it is like that, i've got to put a stop to it. anyway we only have like until O level ends, which is a month plus.

As i said, for many many umpteen times, i can be all alone like you do. we may have some similarities, but out differences are too huge. Even if the whole world leave me alone, i still got myself. i can live in my own fantasies without you.

Perhaps when people grows, our way of thinking begins to change.
I've been trying, ya know?
Back to me emotions again. How nostalgic.

now, lets put our hands together. not to clap, but to pray to god.
thats the only solution, right?

2007-09-07T18:45:00.000+08:00

the group except me. the teacher explaining.

(left-right = alice?, matthew? teacher, syjia, songyang)

(bkgrnd- daiweng)

the pro teacher focusing

'with syjia in the backgrnd. matthew?

the pro student1 doing his work. Alice?

2007-09-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

Hurricane Felix roared ashore early Tuesday as a fearsome Category 5 storm — the first time in recorded history that two top-scale storms have made landfall in the same season. The storm hit near the swampy Nicaragua-Honduras border, whipping metal rooftops through the air like razors and forcing thousands to flee coastal swampland.
Felix was the first of two major storms expected to make landfall on Tuesday: Off Mexico's Pacific coast, Hurricane Henriette churned toward the upscale resort of Cabo San Lucas, popular with Hollywood stars and sea fishing enthusiasts.
In Nicaragua, more than 12,000 people were evacuated just ahead of Felix's landfall, but some refused to leave vulnerable coastal communities, and three boats loaded with a total of 49 people sent out distress calls, civil defense official Rogelio Flores said.
"The winds are horrible," Red Cross official Claudio Vanegas said by phone from the Nicaraguan town of Puerto Cabezas shortly after Felix struck land nearby with winds of 160 mph. "They send roofs flying through the air, so we aren't going outside because it is too dangerous."
Phones and power were out in much of the Miskito Coast, making it difficult to find out what was happening in the remote, swampy area where many people depend on canoes for transport. Provincial health official Efrain Burgos warned that 18,000 people should find their own way to higher ground.
The only path to safety for many of those Indians was up rivers and across lakes that are too shallow for regular boats, but many lacked gasoline for long canoe journeys out. And damaging winds and floods could wipe out their crops of beans, rice, cassava and plantains.
In Honduras seaside resort of La Ceiba, residents spent the night reinforcing the flimsy walls of their homes with plywood and sandbags.
"It's going to be strong, but we have faith that Christ will protect us," said Sandra Hernandez, a 37-year-old housewife who watched satellite images of the storm on television.
Hurricane Dean struck Mexico two weeks ago as a Category 5 storm, and Felix's landfall marked the first time that two Category 5 hurricanes have hit land in a season since 1886, according to the U.S. National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration. Only 31 such storms have been recorded in the Atlantic, including eight in the last five seasons.
"This is an extremely dangerous and potentially catastrophic hurricane. We just hope everybody has taken the precautions necessary to protect life and property," Richard Pasch, a hurricane specialist at the National Hurricane Center, said Tuesday.
Off Mexico's Pacific coast, Henriette strengthened into a hurricane and was on a path to hit the tip of the Baja California Peninsula on Tuesday afternoon. The storm had sustained winds of 75 mph and, at 8 a.m. EDT, was centered about 80 miles south-southeast of the peninsula.
Before dawn Tuesday, strong waves pounded the resort's beaches, rain fell in sheets and strong winds whipped palm trees. More than 100 residents spent the night in makeshift shelters as the storm approached, and more were expected to leave their homes Tuesday.
Henriette claimed seven lives even before it strengthened into a hurricane. One woman drowned in high surf in Cabo San Lucas on Monday, and the storm caused flooding and landslides that killed six people in Acapulco.
On Tuesday, in the final hours before Hurricane Felix was expected to hit, Grupo Taca Airlines frantically airlifted tourists from the Honduran island of Roatan, popular for its pristine reefs and diving resorts, while the U.S. Southern Command said a Chinook helicopter evacuated 19 U.S. citizens, including tourists and members of U.S. Joint Task Force-Bravo who were visiting the island. Delta Airlines sent an extra flight Tuesday to Honduras to help customers escape Felix.
Bob Shearer, 54, from Butler, Pa., said he was disappointed his family's scuba diving trip to Roatan was cut short.
"I only got seven dives in. I hope they didn't jump the gun too soon," he said as he waited for a flight home in the San Pedro Sula airport.
The storm was following the same path as 1998's Hurricane Mitch, a sluggish storm that stalled for a week over Central America, killing nearly 11,000 people and leaving more than 8,000 missing, mostly in Honduras and Nicaragua.
Meteorologists agree that it is impossible to determine if any single hurricane is the result of climate change. But they differ on the key question of whether global warming is making hurricanes stronger.
Some scientists say that more intense hurricanes are forming because of human-caused increases of sea surface temperatures. Others say that newer technology such as satellites and other devices allow better storm strength measurements, and that accounts for the increase in detecting more powerful hurricanes.

2007-08-27T21:20:00.000+08:00

2007-08-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

TULUM, Mexico - Hurricane Dean slammed into the Caribbean coast of Mexico on Tuesday as a roaring Category 5 hurricane, the most intense Atlantic storm to make landfall in two decades. It lashed ancient Mayan ruins and headed for the modern oil installations of the Yucatan Peninsula.

Dean's path was a stroke of luck for Mexico: It made landfall in a sparsely populated coastline that had already been evacuated, skirting most of the major tourist resorts. It weakened within hours to a Category 3 storm, with maximum sustained winds of 125 mph.

The eye of the storm hit land near Majahual, a port popular with cruise liners, and it was racing across the Yucatan Peninsula toward a Tuesday evening entry into the Bay of Campeche, where the state oil company evacuated the oil rigs that produce most of Mexico's oil.

In the largely Mayan town of Felipe Carrillo Puerto, at one point about 30 miles from the center of the storm, people stared from their porches at broken tree limbs and electrical cables crisscrossing the streets, some of which were flooded with ankle-deep water.

Tin roofing ripped from houses clunked hollowly as it bounced in the wind whistling through town.

"We began to feel the strong winds about 2 in the morning and you could hear that the trees were breaking and some tin roofs were coming off," said Miguel Colli, a 36-year-old store employee. "Everyone holed up in their houses. Thank God that the worst is over."

With the storm still screaming, there were no immediate reports of deaths, injuries or major damage, Quintana Roo Gov. Felix Gonzalez told Mexico's Televisa network, though officials had not been able to survey the area. In the Quintana Roo state capital, Chetumal, the storm downed trees and sent sheets of metal flying through the air.

At landfall, Dean had sustained winds near 165 mph and gusts that reached 200 mph — faster than the takeoff speed of many passenger jets. It was moving west-northwest near 20 mph across the Yucatan Peninsula.

The hurricane killed at least 12 people across the Caribbean, picked up strength after brushing Jamaica and the Cayman Islands and became a monstrous Category 5 hurricane Monday. Sections of the Jamaican capital and the island's east suffered severe damage in the storm, and the country postponed Aug. 27 general elections.

Only three Category 5 storms, capable of catastrophic damage, have hit the U.S. since 1935. Dean is the first Category 5 to make landfall in the Atlantic region since Hurricane Andrew hit south Florida in 1992.

Thousands of tourists fled the beaches of the Mayan Riviera. Though expected to escape a direct hit, Cancun still could face destructive winds.

"There's a lot of noisy wind now with this creature all over us," state civil protection official Francisco de la Cruz said from his hurricane-proof offices in Chetumal.

The hurricane center said Dean could gain power as it crosses the Bay of Campeche and would likely be a major hurricane when it makes landfall a second time on Wednesday. The storm's track would carry it into the central Mexican coast about 400 miles south of the Texas border.

"We often see that when a storm weakens, people let down their guard completely. You shouldn't do that," said Jamie Rhome, a hurricane specialist. "This storm probably won't become a Category 5 again, but it will still be powerful."

At 7 a.m. EDT, Dean's eye was over the Yucatan Peninsula, 40 miles northwest of Chetumal.
Meteorologists said a storm surge of 12 to 18 feet was possible at the storm's center, which could push sea water deep inland. Heavy rains threatened to inundate the swampy region.

Petroleos Mexicanos evacuated all 18,000 offshore workers and shut down production rigs on the Bay of Campeche — resulting in a production loss of 2.7 million barrels of oil and 2.6 billion cubic feet of natural gas a day.

On Tuesday, Dean threatened the Yucatan's most vulnerable population — the Mayan people — many of whom have seen little of the riches from oil or tourism, and still live in traditional wooden slat huts in small settlements all over this low-lying area.

President Felipe Calderon said he would cut short a trip to Canada where he is meeting with President Bush and Canadian Prime Minister Stephen Harper, and travel Tuesday to the areas where the hurricane was expected to hit.

Trees fell and debris flew through the air in Corozal on Belize's northern border with Mexico. The government had evacuated Caye Caulker and Ambergris Caye — both popular with U.S. tourists — and ordered a dusk-to-dawn curfew from Belize City to the Mexican border.

Authorities evacuated Belize City's three hospitals and were moving high-risk patients inland to the nation's capital, Belmopan, founded after 1961's Hurricane Hattie devastated Belize City.

Mayor Zenaida Moya urged residents to leave Belize City, saying it does not have shelters strong enough to withstand a storm of Dean's size.

At the southern tip of Texas, sandbags were distributed in the resort town of South Padre Island, and residents were urged to evacuate.

The crew of the U.S. space shuttle Endeavour prepared to land a day early Tuesday because of the threat NASA had once feared Hurricane Dean would pose to Mission Control in Houston.

In Mexico during the past three days, officials put more than 50,000 people on flights leaving various parts of the Yucatan peninsula, the federal Communications and Transportation Department said in a statement.

Cancun, well north of Dean's landfall, saw strong winds since the storm swirled over 75,000 square miles, about the size of Nebraska.

Cancun's tourist strip is still marked with cranes used to repair the damage from 2005's Hurricane Wilma, which caused $3 billion in losses. Dean is expected to be even stronger than Wilma, which stalled over Cancun and pummeled it for a day.

Dean had a minimum central pressure of 906 millibars just before landfall, the third lowest at landfall after the 1935 Labor Day hurricane in the Florida Keys and Hurricane Gilbert, which hit Cancun in 1988.

"A very low pressure indicates a very strong storm," said Hurricane Center meteorologist Rebecca Waddington.

The worst storm to hit Latin America in modern times was 1998's Hurricane Mitch, which killed nearly 11,000 people and left more than 8,000 missing, most in Honduras and Nicaragua.

Singapore court orders Internet company to reveal customers who illegally download videos

2007-08-20T18:20:00.000+08:00

The Associated Press Published: August 14, 2007

SINGAPORE: A Singapore video distributor said Tuesday it has won a suit against an Internet service provider asking for the identities of customers alleged to have downloaded popular Japanese animated cartoons.

Anime distributor Odex Pt. Ltd. said StarHub, a telecommunications, Internet and cable company, was ordered to reveal about 1,000 of its subscribers accused of downloading anime illegally.

StarHub had earlier resisted Odex's efforts to obtain the data, citing "an obligation to protect our customers' information."

"In the instance of Odex, they have satisfied the court of their need for the information. As such, we will comply with the court order," said StarHub spokesman Michael Sim.

Once Odex obtains the identities of the Internet users alleged to have downloaded the anime videos, the company will likely contact them and seek compensation of up to 5,000 Singapore dollars (US$3,285; €2,419) from each, Odex Director Stephen Sing said. The users will also have to destroy any stolen content and stop further illegal downloading.

"Singapore's downloading situation is very bad," Sing said. "We have engaged companies to track illegal downloads in Singapore, and ratio-wise, we're actually right up there in the illegal downloads in the world, in terms of Japanese animation."

Odex earlier this year obtained a similar court order seeking the identities of about the same number of customers of Singapore Telecommunications Ltd.'s Internet service, SingNet, Sing said. Those customers were also alleged to have downloaded anime.

The company will take more legal action later this week with a suit against a third Internet service provider, Pacific Internet, for the right to track down another 1,000 customers suspected of the same offense, Sing said.

Odex, Singapore's main anime distributor, has seen a drop of 60-70 percent in sales in the past two years, largely due to an increase in downloads, Sing said.

2007-08-20T18:16:00.000+08:00

By SETH BORENSTEIN, AP Science Writer Mon Aug 20, 1:49 AM ET

WASHINGTON - Around the world, a handful of scientists are trying to create life from scratch and they're getting closer.

Experts expect an announcement within three to 10 years from someone in the now little-known field of "wet artificial life."

"It's going to be a big deal and everybody's going to know about it," said Mark Bedau, chief operating officer of ProtoLife of Venice, Italy, one of those in the race. "We're talking about a technology that could change our world in pretty fundamental ways — in fact, in ways that are impossible to predict."

That first cell of synthetic life — made from the basic chemicals in DNA — may not seem like much to non-scientists. For one thing, you'll have to look in a microscope to see it.

"Creating protocells has the potential to shed new light on our place in the universe," Bedau said. "This will remove one of the few fundamental mysteries about creation in the universe and our role."

And several scientists believe man-made life forms will one day offer the potential for solving a variety of problems, from fighting diseases to locking up greenhouse gases to eating toxic waste.
Bedau figures there are three major hurdles to creating synthetic life:

• A container, or membrane, for the cell to keep bad molecules out, allow good ones, and the ability to multiply.

• A genetic system that controls the functions of the cell, enabling it to reproduce and mutate in response to environmental changes.

• A metabolism that extracts raw materials from the environment as food and then changes it into energy.

One of the leaders in the field, Jack Szostak at Harvard Medical School, predicts that within the next six months, scientists will report evidence that the first step — creating a cell membrane — is "not a big problem." Scientists are using fatty acids in that effort.

Szostak is also optimistic about the next step — getting nucleotides, the building blocks of DNA, to form a working genetic system.

His idea is that once the container is made, if scientists add nucleotides in the right proportions, then Darwinian evolution could simply take over.

"We aren't smart enough to design things, we just let evolution do the hard work and then we figure out what happened," Szostak said.

In Gainesville, Fla., Steve Benner, a biological chemist at the Foundation for Applied Molecular Evolution is attacking that problem by going outside of natural genetics. Normal DNA consists of four bases — adenine, cytosine, guanine and thymine (known as A,C,G,T) — molecules that spell out the genetic code in pairs. Benner is trying to add eight new bases to the genetic alphabet.
Bedau said there are legitimate worries about creating life that could "run amok," but there are ways of addressing it, and it will be a very long time before that is a problem.

"When these things are created, they're going to be so weak, it'll be a huge achievement if you can keep them alive for an hour in the lab," he said. "But them getting out and taking over, never in our imagination could this happen."

(This version CORRECTS Bedau quote to "shed new light")

2007-08-15T21:02:00.001+08:00

The Yangtze River dolphin, one of the world's rarest mammals, is no more, a victim of China's breakneck economic growth and competition for food with one of the world's most common large mammals - human beings.
"We can say that the animal is functionally extinct," says August Pfluger, head of the Zurich-based Baiji.org Foundation, which in December co-sponsored a six-week, 2,000-mile (3,500-km) survey of the Yangtze without finding a single remaining member of the critically endangered species. The dolphin, one of only four exclusively freshwater species in the world, may have the unhappy distinction of being the first aquatic mammal to go extinct in more than half a century - and the first large mammal driven into oblivion by environmental degradation.
Nicknamed the "goddess of the Yangtze," and long considered auspicious by fishermen, the pale-colored, human-sized dolphins have always been rare: a 1997 survey recorded only 14 left in the river. (A captive dolphin died of old age in a Chinese zoo in 2002). But Pfluger says human pressure pushed the baiji past the tipping point. "The main reason is overfishing. The Chinese still use unsustainable fishing methods like dynamite. There's still a lot of illegal fishing, so the dolphins were competing with humans for food."
According to Wang Ding, a researcher at the Wuhan Institute of Hydrobiology and a leading expert on the baiji, damming on the river and noise from heavy boat traffic may have disoriented the dolphins, which are mostly blind and search for food in the sandy shallows using sonar. The confused and starving animals may then have wandered into boat propellers. Heavy dredging in shipping channels could also have made it harder for the animals to locate each other and hunt for increasingly scarce fish. "Dredging is a very serious problem," Wang says. "It destroys spawning grounds of fish. There are also too many boats. The baiji depend on their sonar ability to survive."
As top-level predators, dolphins like the baiji are an "indicator species" - bellwethers of the general health of an ecosystem. Their disappearance bodes ill for the Yangtze, which supports more than 400 million people, roughly 6% of the world's total population. Wang says the Yangtze is relatively unpolluted. But untrammeled commerce and massive hydrological projects like the Three Gorges Dam have dramatically altered the river's landscape. With as many as 60 boats per km of river in some areas, the Yangtze already looks less like a river than a highway during rush hour. "Baiji are at the top of the food chain just like human beings," Wang says. "If the river can't support baiji, someday it won't support humans either."
Indeed, baiji aren't the only animal facing extinction. Wang says the finless porpoise, another large cetacean native to the river, has also seen its population plummet because of shipping and hydrological engineering. When Wang surveyed the river in the early 1990s, he found about 1,200 of the porpoises; 15 years later, there were fewer than half that number left. But Wang says it may not be too late to save the species. Galvanized in part by the baiji's disappearance, Chinese scientists are taking aggressive steps to rescue the finless porpoise, including breeding the animals in a lake preserve. In fact, Wang believes it may not even be too late for the baiji: there may be a handful of baiji dolphins left in some isolated backwater of the Yangtze. If they can be located and captured, he says, breeding might yet save their species. Pfluger, however, is not so optimistic. "Maybe one or two are left," he says. "But they don't have any chance to survive."

2007-08-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

Lane Garrison, who pleaded guilty to vehicular manslaughter and drunken driving in a crash that killed a teenage passenger, was ordered Thursday to undergo a 90-day evaluation to help a judge decide his sentence.

The former "Prison Break" actor will undergo a "diagnostic" by parole officers and psychologists in a prison before returning for an Oct. 31 appearance before Superior Court Judge Elden S. Fox.

Garrison, 27, was driving a 2001 Land Rover on Dec. 2 when he lost control and rammed a tree. The crash killed Vahagn Setian, a Beverly Hills High School student who would have been 18 on Wednesday.
Two other passengers, both 15-year-old girls, survived. Garrison had a blood-alcohol content of 0.20 percent, more than twice the legal limit for driving, and was under the influence of cocaine, according to police. About a dozen of the victim's friends and relatives were in court Thursday, all wearing T-shirts with Setian's picture on the front and the James Dean saying "Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today" on the back.

Garrison pleaded guilty in May to one count of vehicular manslaughter without gross negligence, one count of driving under the influence with a blood-alcohol level of 0.15 percent or higher, and a misdemeanor of providing alcohol to a minor.

He apologized to Setian's family during the court proceeding. "I relive that night every day and I think about the bad decision I made that day. All I can say to you is, `I'm so sorry,'" he said. Garrison's character on Fox's "Prison Break" was killed in the show's Oct. 2 episode.

The Dallas native's other credits include the film "Crazy." He was recently featured in a public service announcement that encourages viewers not to drink and drive. The PSA re-enacts his crash and he appears to be holding back tears as he talks about what a stupid and costly mistake he made.

2007-07-31T18:10:00.000+08:00

The shivering cold cast upon me.

A gust of wind approached.

Numberous tiny droplets had a fight.

Pandemonium

No matter how they attacked,

it was futile.

Defence was solid.

Only penetration through gaps,

created by the blinding heat of the combusted star,

hydrogen filled,

or by the wonderful living organisms,

probably filled with proteins.

Every now and then,

there are wars for them.

Only with the help of the warmly-filled ray,

shining brightly & glaringly at them.

Human. The core of all problems.

Tomorrow is the 1st of August 2007.

Only one whole month left.

Such boring life.

Study after studying.

Wonder if people still study when

the Earth has been burnt to ash.

What's the use of studying

when the world is about to end?

when the Earth is dying?

2007-07-19T17:28:00.000+08:00

Today is my birthday.

tomorrow is no longer my birthday.

24 hours passes so fast.

only left a few hours left...

i'm finally 16.

should i be happy or be sad?

thanks all who wished me happy birthday.

and more thanks to those who gave me presents

thanks everyone

thanks fiona

thanks mavis

thanks paulina

thanks junliang

thanks ziheng x2

thanks syjia.....

2007-07-17T18:03:00.000+08:00

So in fact... i was a fool.

All the while from the beginning.

i was too naïve.

There was mininum chance

i ran out too far

and found out that the distance i ran

can never be removed.

For all i've done,

they are there

because it's destiny.

they took out a lot of spaces,

it's time to be removed.

a callow youth of fifteen

going sixteen

rolling on the floor

laughing my ass out

2007-07-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

Due to my status that i've had attained, something needs to be sacrificed.

What do you think i sacrificed?

Breakfast: As usual, 2pieces of bread and cereal

cos' i havnt attain it

Recess: nothing

Lunch: nothing

Reach home: 2 pieces of bread with sausage and cheese

Dinner: small bowl of fried noodle

Let's see if i faint tmr morning.

2007-07-12T16:46:00.000+08:00

I've attained the status.

Emmortality

2007-07-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

LUCKY 7 TODAY!!!

7/7/07

Have a Nice day~! ^^

Lend or Borrow?

2007-07-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

ello everyone. today, i'll give a short english lesson.

do you say 'go and lend from people' or

'go and borrow from people' or

both also can?

well... if you think that 'lend'

is the correct word to fit in the sentence,

then you're absolutely wrong.

And of course, 'borrow' is the correct word.

do you say 'can lend me your pencil?' or

'can i borrow your pencil?'

And so, this concludes today's english lesson.

lend- Give temporarily

borrow- Get temporarily

Even the people who are good in English can also make the same mistake. for example: Olivia.

No offence. Just to correct her English even though i never corrected her earlier today.

Yien also makes the same mistake, but well... his English is not as good.

New Verb known: regurgitate

well. see ya people.

Be a butterfly or a housefly? It's your choice.

2007-07-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

if anyone got any comments abt me. go ahead n scream at me or scold me or bash me or kick me or kill me. jus wadeva. if i'm not suitable to be ur fwen, if i'm an irritating person, if you feel that i'm a pest then get out of my sight. i mean, tell me, so that you will become a transparent person to me. i'm alright with that. okk. another time i said that... i'm alright with everything. i can be most lonely person in the world where nobody concerns. i can live in the deepest depth of the world and no body will give a DAMN.

fwens or not.

it's ur decision

the choice lies in you

whoever you are,

i also dun give a DAMN

cos i'm alright with everything.

2007-07-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

something maybe interesting. i heard from the news today. something who committed a crime was sentenced to jail and was supposed to be caned 5 times but he was caned 8 times. 3 extra strokes. that guy sure can bear the pain huh.

"DAI JIO BU?!"

dengue is on the rise.

NDP '07 attracted a lot people.

criminals(murderers) on the move

2007-06-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

ok. since i haven't posted any during the last don't know how many
days, i shall fill this post will hell lots of things,probably. haha. i'm just
too lazy to blog anymore, so probably once in a while i'll do it. this
prevents me to keep myself being so emotional. however, as the post
continues, i'll become emotional again,eventually. So... if you don't want
to be engulfed by my emotional powers, please do not continue to read
this post. And of course, you can try joining the emotional forces.
Hereby, i announced the beginning of the actual, boring, emotional post
of mine...

Back there, during the holidays, i was struck by something emotional.
And of course, if you are reading this, you'd have know what i was
referring to, unless you're nuts. Empty nuts i mean, not stupid definitely,
not dumb, not smart either. okay, let's see what a nut could mean.
since it's an empty nut, it means that the 'food' or whatever it is called
has been exposed to the surroundings. This gives rise of the people who
are so sociable, and people who underwent various situations where he
or she himself/herself had to solve. Unlike me, probably a nut too, have
not been exposed to these. i had never open my heart to anyone.
Maybe i did before, but those were probably due to cracks on my nut.

Who has ever truly seen the true self of me? Who has ever managed to
decipher what was in my mind? Who has ever understand how i really
feel? Who has really made known to what i actually desired for? Who
has ever believed in me totally that there was a hundred percent trust?
Who has really taken me as his or her friend? Who has ever wondered
why i am always so quiet? Who has ever made me feel that i'm not
lonely?

What's courage? What's knowledge? What's love? What's hope? What's
friendship? What's reliability? What's sincerity? What's light?

Have i been important to anyone? i feel myself unnecessary in every
place i go. i don't see any shadows of my own. i don't belong to where i
am now. i could only stay in the dark, the deepest depth where you
have to search for in your heart. Did anyone really searched their heart
to realise what he or she is actually feeling? You won't know the answer
unless you try.

Back to main 'story', school has reopened and holidays are over. it's
already a week ever since students started going back school to receive
knowledge. Ordinary level is just round the corner although you can't
see it hiding in the corner. there! it's there you blind bats! Well, the orals
for English and Mother tongue are just a few days ahead. And soon it
will be prelimary examinations, followed by ordinary level.

It will be a different day everyday. There will always be a Tomorrow.
Yesterday's tomorrow is today. The day before yesterday 's tomorrow is
yesterday. The day after tomorrow is tomorrow's tomorrow. Even
though there is a tomorrow everyday, but have you realised that if you
don't appreciate your life now, there may be no tomorrow for you. And
of course, appreciate what's in front of you, whats around you... Don't
be like me who is a pessimist who's waiting for someday when i'll be
killed. i think that i'm going quite off topic. But, actually, there isn't a
topic to start with. From the start of this post, i have been trying to
lengthen the number of words i wrote, and it's quite successful.

to end this off, one advice. Go BE a NUT. nut means a whimsically eccentric person. (although there are a few other meanings of nut)i've been wasting quite a long time, but i'm still trying to lengthen this post.

i shall finally end off with a riddle. it goes like this:

the richest man lacks me

the poorest man has me

if you eat me,

you are certain to perish.

What am i?

666

think hard.

i suck

2007-06-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

the first time happened in secondary two. at that time, life was easy-going, even though it was streaming year. i was myself. as usual. my heart was stolen. pieces of my heart were given away. i tried to give in my best. for her sake. maybe i did not do enough, or maybe i was too childish. the time came when i knew that i could not make it. i was facing it, the words of rejection. it was my very first time. at that very moment, tears welled in my eyes, they trickled down my cheeks as the past memories flashed past. i finally realised i hate these kind of situation. but there was nothing that i could do, to stop my tears, to start afresh.

time flies and i am now in secondary four, i understand myself. so quiet so active so stupid so useless so hopeless so ugly. these are all about myself. there was a time, when i came across this thought: who's actually in my mind? perhaps i said wrong, this question was repeated again and again but the answer was not clear. until then, i made up my mind. the person could only be her. the one and only her. she was not the first her but the second her. my heart flipped. i know how nice she is, how sweet she is, she is so nice to me. perhaps i was thinking too much. with my character, no matter how much i've put in, the result will be the same. i was giving my best, the source of my life. i had never think of giving it up. perhaps it was god's will, to bring us together, and to separate us. No. i am wrong. we were not brought together. it was just me, being too engrossed in it, didn't realise that it was one-sided..

i can feel the sourish feelings. Give me a break. knowing the result of my actions, i insisted on trying. Now, it has been proven. my heart. pieces of my heart. found scattered around. now the source of my life was gone, i don't think there is any need to continue. i feel superbly tired now. my efforts didn't pay off. it was recorded in my history, the end of this 'relation'.

If it's the destiny between us, then there's nothing i can do.

If it's your wish for us to be separated, then i shall grant your wish.

这是我自作多情的结果。

这是上天注定的，这是您的愿望。

i'll let go.

you're freed

i felt terrible

you felt only apologetic.

i'm sorry

2007-06-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

i felt upmost frustration in myself. i just don't know what's wrong with me. i've been waiting for a chance, but when the chance came right in my eyes, i couldn't do it. Hesitations had filled me to the maximum. i just want to give something, and i just couldn't bring out my courage. i held back even though knowing what i should do. it kept flashing past my mind, i was reminded by myself the umpteen times to do it, but i realised that i was hopeless. i was blaming myself, in the bus, all the way from the boarding stop to the terminal. This is not something i want from myself. 2days left. i'm just not being myself.

i've lost.

my dark side is too overpowering.

without it being subdued,

i can never do it.

2007-05-29T15:31:00.000+08:00

my new resolve

'tit and tat'

it's some bad day for studying...

back to school for truncated lessons..

hais. jus like normal school day but only with 3 subj

which is like... worse..

2007-05-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

things are getting better.

for duno what reasons

everything almost back to normal

almost, i supposed.

~Nankurunaisa~

2007-05-25T14:31:00.000+08:00

i did so badly.

l1r5 is 15...

% is 67.4

class position is 18

lvl position is 42

die le...

theres no future for me

no chance to enter mj..

i'm done for

2007-05-21T17:52:00.000+08:00

i don't sense the presence of euu.

where'd you have gone to?

i feel uneasy.

why?

my presence is insignificant.

you would not need me,

it's not worth it

right?

2007-05-19T22:10:00.000+08:00

Today's my gramps birthday. as usual, we will gather together and eat a sumptuous dinner. i was so full! i'm afraid of getting fat... after the dinner, it's time for the cake!

the perfect cake.

After putting the candles.After lighting up of candles.

we're all ready for the Birthday SONG! ♫happy birthday to you ♫~~ well, the kids are up to some mischief after the song was sung.

they everytime steal the chance to blow the candles.

so... the candles were blown off. lets proceed to the cutting of the cake! ~~wee..~~
time to work! before you get to eat, put in some effort!
enjoy the cake! he's eating the strawberry!

what's he up to? mischievous

what is she doing there? dazing while the cake was cut. cute!!

he just dont want to look at the camera. greedy pig~ look at how he eats..hai..
CUTE! she knows there's a camera so she posed.

but then she did not look at the camera. lol.

only taught her to pose ar? xD

and there she goes, continue to eat the cake. yummy!!~

thats the end of the ceremony~ buaix.

2007-05-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

today is a very very long day... it is the most dreadful day that i want to have. lessons were sosososo long... 4+ periods of chem. then got chinese mock exam. hai. i want to sleep...i lumbered home from interchange. then lumbered back to interchange. then decided to take bus 17 to pasir ris all the way instead of taking mrt, so that i can sleep on the bus. on my way home, then i decided to take mrt. while on the mrt, i recalled. recalled about an importand thing that happened in my life these few days. there's no head nor there's tail. its jus happened like a pistol being triggered. immediately. how will it end out to be? i was just wondering. how many times i experienced a broke down in fwenship? i rmbred primary 6 that time i had once. i went into rage in front of everyone, and left the scene. if my memories doesnt fail me, i probably cried after leaving. i supposed everyone was shocked by what happened. i've hardly been very angry about something. And if i'm angry about the something, it must be something great. and the anger is not just an apology that can settle the problem. however that time, when i reached home, one by one they called me to apologise. i was glad. i was probably too young. however, in between there have been one-to-one broken fwenships. when i engulf myself into complete anger and sadness. it could probably mean : its over,dude. By chance, there may be a way.

2007-05-17T17:05:00.000+08:00

i've broke my record. i've not spoken more than 100words today in school. i've finally attain the ultimate solitude. i've finally upgraded myself to become a hermit.

Chemistry was a complete letdown.
Emaths was okay.
Physics was marvellous.
However, my overall and L1R5 are hopeless.

Whats wrong with yien towards me? there seemed to be a transparent wall btwn us. he ignored me. so. i did the same. maybe. the discrimination btwn the smart and the stupid. well, if that is so. Then i'll have no say.
anyway, the previous posts aren't about yien. You've probably got my point.

2007-05-16T15:04:00.000+08:00

oh! the posting page is finally repaired. But the template page still cannot enter. hais.. anw. i din not really screwed my geog paper. but it's a B3, which i thot is not bad alrdy. when ms yap announced the overall results of how many people get a1 a2 etc. , i thot i was the failure. my heart pounded against my ribs with jackhammer's ferocity as she goes nearer and nearer to my name. i could imagine the number of faces that would stare at me, the jeering of my failure. To my astonishment, i was deceiving myself. my eyes dilated with euphoria when i realised i got a b3. But of course, it was not that great after all. i am still exulted with satisfaction regarding my geog result --it was way above my expectations. What's left are Chemistry MCQs, Emaths paper1, & physics. i hope i can do well for them, to pull myself up if not my overall is going to a complete drop. my downfall. making me feels downcast.

i'll just have to pray...
The Stars will lead my ways...

2007-05-15T22:15:00.000+08:00

Quote 1 of the day: Listening is vital in learning and important in relationships.
Quote 2 of the day: Nobody is perfect

Extra information of the day: Linda is the star player!
Something Important: HAPPY BIRTHDAY JingYi! :)

i'm quite pissed. he actually said something like this: "Stop grumbling about your carelessness, i got worse result ok? you thrashed me in this paper." i just couldn't believe my ears.
HE ACTUALLY SAID THAT TO ME WHEN HE HIMSELF DID NOT CARE ABOUT HOW I FEEL WHEN HE WAS SAYING ABOUT HIS CARELESSNESS THAT CAUSED HIM NOT TO GET FULL MARKS FOR EMATHS PAPER2. @#$%^&*
i wonder how much longer can i stand against his 'hypocritical' attitude. Is the word too 'negative' & strong against him? i wonder....

i couldnt wait to see my screwed up results of chemistry and geography. i may be dead. right after i receive them. Death, is probably a good way.

2007-05-14T20:47:00.000+08:00

people becomes stronger because they have memories they can't forget. this is called 'growth'.
Stronger in the sense that you're mentally stronger. perhaps i'm trapped in this kind of situation, where precious memories were kept deep in my heart. no. should be my brain?
Sweet memories. perhaps. for today. however, there are still bad memories that will be erased.
Happy Birthday Mavis. =p x) :)

What's with your arrogance? your results are already so high and you asked for more? have you tried putting yourself in other people's shoe? Spare a thought for others.
"My marks are deducted due to my carelessness, if not i could have gotten full marks."
these words are probably the dirts in my ears. Should i have hear these again, i shall act as i'm daydreaming and don't give a tiny concern about what you've said. i mean my words.

from what SyJia said, and also from what i felt, he's probably very boastful about himself. If you're reading these, please reflect on your ownself, and think of what other people feels. have you got it, Mr Cocky cum Know.Every.thing. ?

i can only admit that my results are the worst of the worse.

2007-05-13T21:04:00.000+08:00

stupid blogger got problem.. i'm not goin to post. booo.... =p

2007-05-07T21:50:00.001+08:00

i just dun quite get it. why must people come over to my blog, give comments and give me big time? i had probably, lost control of myself. to think of so many people objecting against my actions, it was totally, the last straw that broke the camel's back with new-found solitude. there was practically no one. No one. Complete nothingness. i was standing alone, while facing the incoming approach of the gigantic waves. One after another splashed right in my face. the taste of the sourish feeling is no good. would anyone just save me? i was standing alone. No one gave any aid. helplessly hoping for a kind soul to stretch out his hands, and give me the necessary help. it was all imaginations. the stranded me. the lonely me, could only depend on myself, to complete this lonely road of mine... i finally realised, how screwed up this world is. or perhaps, i've already knew it all along, from the very start when i entered this solitude world of mine. the gust of wind blew past me, casting a shivering feeling about what the future lies ahead. To my astonishment, there are actually people around me. People who are concerned about me, people who are ignorant about my behaviour, people who adhors me. Are they components of the body?

2007-05-07T13:03:00.000+08:00

exams are almost over. Lets rejoy!~ the urge for the end of this examination is so strong. just cant wait till its over. left the geography mcq emaths paper1 n amaths paper2. its will soon be over! then the O's will be coming soon... anw. enjoy the rest of this month with euphoria before the stress for Os comes. =)

look at the playful yien...

the messy living room of mine...how to study when it's nt a conducive environment for studying? xD

does this watch looks appealing to you? ok. i'm nt a good photographer.

its yapseng's watch actually. =)

good luck for the rest of the papers. and take care.

post edited due to popular demands.

LEARN ABC

2007-05-05T19:51:00.000+08:00

abcdefg hijklmn opqrstu

vwxyzab cdefghi jklmnop

qrstwxyz abcdef ghijklm opqrstu

2007-05-05T09:48:00.000+08:00

what kind of fwenship did we had?
its seemed kinda insignificant all of a sudden...

2007-05-03T13:43:00.000+08:00

the thirst for blood is so strong. the thirst for love is so...
the thirst for results is so strong too.

2007-05-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

Traumatised. Overwhelmed. WHAT? time's up..

2007-05-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

lack of confidence. i'm losing out, at an increasing rate. Is it time to give up? do i persevere still the end?

2007-04-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

i've been trapped. is there other way out? a way that can please eu?

2007-04-28T11:32:00.000+08:00

i've lost completely.

2007-04-25T18:57:00.001+08:00

its not the first time i had this feeling. i felt so so so deeply disturbed. The hidden soul beneath me is troubled. i don't know exactly how to describe this feeling of mine, but it's really quite troublesome. the sourish feeling i felt in my heart. the hurt i received the moment u said the word. it's not like usual, where i can keep it deep in my heart, where i can stop thinking about it, where i can hide it as long as i could. now, the strong hurt i felt, is unbearable. i thot i could face it with courage, but the moment it slapped right on my face, i was totally dumbstruck, as though i was caught unprepared.
the glacial moments, when cold sweat tickled down my cheeks, i can feel the bad feeling that is pouring towards me, into my heart. i couldn't believe myself suffering this once again. the previous one was like only a few days ago. i just managed to got over with it, as she was just too hard for me to be angry at, to be sad at. however, she made me suffer from downcast again. i only merely asked her a question, she rejected it immediately, without hesitation, without consideration. How long have we known each other? How long have we been believeing in each other? Maybe our connections are not properly linked. excuses are given. But how durable can the excuses be? Just 4 words "i dont trust you" is enough to break the entire rope. the one that has always been tied around us, it's already worn, anymore resistance could break it. would u bear to break it, after so much i've done for you and so much you've done for me?
'i'm sorry' does apology really solve problems? i looked at things very differently. i supposed people who knows me well, will know that i'm actually quite a quiet person, who always look on the dark side of life. Disparaging myself, has became a job since i entered this world. Maybe, a professional if possible. This is no joke, this is no laughing matters. i'm quite serious about how the world looked upon me, how everyone comments about me. i,myself, always gives negative comments about myself. just because i always believe that i'm not the suitable person to suit that kind of description. how am i supposed to disagree that i'm ugly? how am i supposed to admit that my studies suck to the max? how can i ever compare myself in any way, to people who are so good in all these? inferiority has overwhelmed me. And i supposed i have to admit to the fate that i don't like to study, don't like to do troublesome thing, don't like to be too sociable with people, don't like to have positive comments on myself, etc. Is it true that 'girls like to study'? thats what someone told me. And my answer is definitely no. who would want to study? Maybe study for knowledge without any important exams is still feasible, but for your future, you have to study like some mad dog like the coming Os or the future As or whatever exams, is just too overpowering. Those who really study one, like what i replied to this person, they had probably accepted their fate, unlike me, who is now a pessimist, and always a pessimist, does not accept this fate of mine. Sometimes, it is going too hard on me that, i'm forced to give up under certain circumstances. So to accept what is right in front of me, is still my choice. And to like somebody and just that somebody, that has to appear in my eyes, in my memories, is just... incredible. Now, will you be able to feel my lonliness from this short essay? the darkness within me that is hidden for quite some time? this is probably not enough to even feed any examiners hunger. Determinations? Perseveration? Not just myself living in this solitude world of myself, my life is just filled with ups and downs, or probably special cases, lefts and rights, insides and outsides. lol? the lonesomeness , filled with agony, filled with downcast, filled with hatred, filled with happiness, filled with distress, filled with anxiety, filled with whatsoever feelings, have already possessed upon my entire soul.
What crappy english i've got. Am i like preparing for the coming exam or something? What in the world am i doing? In the past, i had never tried to use English words as profusely like now. Although, it's not really that great, but i've already tried. Today i learnt some new phrases. well, i wonder if they are usable in exam... With determination glinting in my eyes, i promised to try my best to get a b4 for english for Os. 'will i be able to achieve that? sighed myself heavily, feeling my heart sink. (did i used corrrectly?) lols. Minutes seemed like hours when i wrote this 'essay'. Oh my tian... what is wrong with me. hais.
today, a few more phrases learnt. haha. how should i put them together? hais. forget it. i shall just throw myself into the tormented world of solitude, and keep myself being isolated and ignored. i've got a question for all, hu can tell me wad is ' broke a camel's back with a newfound vengence'? ok, the whole sentence is like this : "Snatching away her chocolate was the last straw that broke the ...." anyone got an answer? xD ^^ =D =) tatA~

2007-04-23T17:43:00.000+08:00

this picture is nt nicely taken. but it's a photo of the magnificient JJ turtle. It's a special species which has been endangered. 'He' is probably the last one alive. wooo..long legs.! for more info, pls visit songyang's blog.ty =) ^^

Am i being a bad guy? today's history lesson is quite a failure. first of all, those who were playing basketball during PE, were late for lesson, including me. however, the lesson had not started even when we were late. and then the most terrible thing happened. Mdm Mariam was furious. Her infuriated posture stunned everyone of us. Some one had purposely covered the LCD projector with the len's cover. well, when we noticed it, and zh intended to remove it, he was intercepted by mariam with a sharp and loud voice. She screamed across the class, probably made it audible to our neighbours. Who's the culprit? i guess...some people knew it but did not expose him. and i also got to know the truth after further investigation by zh. and there it goes, the bell rang triumphantly. (what an adverb i've used). The screaming and incoherent chatters of the class came to a stop when she walked off. She only wanted the culprit to admit his wrongdoings, but he did not.

If he had the gut to do it, he should have stood up and remove it. Apparently, for his reputation, for his fame, for his pride, he remained calm and act as though he was not involved. then everyone headed for english after zh removed the lens cover. and mariam witnessed it, as she turned around to looked at what the class was doing, and she probably guessed it that zh would remove it, despite her warning of only wanting the culprit to do the job.

And puff!! it became koko-crunch!! lols. the tiring, drowsy school day ended at 4.30pm. With the sullen sky threatening everyone to be go home immediately. At reaching the bus stop, it eventually rained cats and dogs. and sighed. what a way to end the exhaustive day. now the sky is once again cleared. and i shall say this again. its tranquil. for me. again.

i jus cant imagine..how ugly i am..

2007-04-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

i shall let pictures take my day.
some macho ppl....

some >< ppl
something that connect to my phone =D

now some cute cute cousin of mine.haha..

tts all. =) i just suffered frm extreme cramp on my left leg. it was a total grim experience. the excruciating pain was unbearable. and, its still pain nw. hais. buaix.

2007-04-19T17:02:00.000+08:00

days of aching has finally came to a stop. that sunday- ran the reservoir. that monday- ran the 2.4km napfa test. that tues- did the five stations. and sustained my gold award. xD i was actually distressed by the number of points i'll get before the napfa. however, my 2.4km improved, and it will further improve. how about my 5 stations? now including the Pull-ups, it's no easy task. it was probably one lucky day or something like that. everything seemed to be better than usual. my sit-ups,pull-up, shuttlerun, sit and reach exceeded my normal records. only for the SBJ, i cant rmbr wad my previous record was, but i know i did badly for this napfa. got a C for SBJ? what a joke..

after we finished, the group of us went to play basketball. well..what crap is this? got scolding just coz' we din go hall to assemble? we got like all the time in the world before the next lesson, which is after recess. why do we have to stay in the hall like some fools waiting to be executed? moreover, we are OrDered to go and keep the sit-and-reach equipments. accomplished, all went back to the hall. what happened next was like a total insult. all except the 'us' have to do push-ups just because there was one equipment left untouched in the assembly plaza. and then...to hell with him.

free time is always the best. for people to talk, for people to play, for people to interact. basketball again. this time it's for real. probably i still not so in it yet. my hand 'tio' pushed by yien forcefully, that now it hurts again. What luck is this? and, tata~ my party lost. haha. it wasnt such a bad game. at least i know my limits. i'm nt always as good as what some people say. they only say that coz' they themselves dun have the advantages like height or something. well. i'm just a lousy player ok.. dun say i'm so pro again. its unnecessary and insignificant. totally, uncalled-for.

ytd, all was fine,perhaps. it was after school again. when the feeling of isolation returned. i went off myself. sat alone in the bus. waiting for it to reach the terminal. when will it reach? why do i have no fwen? it was all, darkness kept within me.

today, the dry stillness was broken by the short drizzle. the temperature was cool. it shld have been that temperature for everyday. it was my 3rd time having 'seeme' on my chem paper. is it a bad thing? hai.. i got no time to emo alrdy. thats why now very little section on emo-ing. nxt time i free then i write more emo-ing parts. i'm quite happy today. when i reached school. met jy, n chatted for a while. after sch met sl, n chatted for a while oso. fwenship is still there for me, if i wan to. =D

my vandalised table.

2007-04-15T09:45:00.000+08:00

a fresh new day! it's a sunday and i had just finished my morning exercise. i was called for, from my sweetest dreams. it was the dawn. the sky is still in its darky mood. my mum had woke me up. ytd i told her i wanted to go for a run this morning. she actually remembered me saying that, and eventually, woke me up. i felt the determination in myself. the only me. once in a lifetime i'll do such 'silly' thing. since when did i ever woke up in the EARLY morning and go for a run? maybe in school during PE. but by that time, it's not that early anymore. hesitations. decision lies on me, myself. lying on my bed thinking over and over again whether to wake up and enjoy the fresh air outside. it seemed to be an easy decision-making, but to think of how tiring it will be at the end of the run, will make one regret. It's just like, putting in efforts to just obtain a consummate result. If you tried hard enough, at the end of the event, the sense of satisfactory lies within you. however, after trying so hard, the fatigability is so high, one could just fall over. being cursory will result in negative remarks. but no matter what the result will be, i'll face it with all my courage and hold my tears.

i'm finally prepared for this battle. with only a watch to time myself. running with an empty stomach, doesnt make a difference. strolling briskly towards my destination, Bedok reservoir. a warm-up. the gate of hell is awaiting for my arrival. the senses of saltish perspirations erupted from my mind. my heart is beating profusely. every single step. every single loop. every single 500m. every single person i ran past. i can feel the inspiration between them, that brought me forward, towards the end. where in the world is the end? the road seemed to be endless. i felt fatigue. my heart is dying. can i persevere? i tried to. but finally came to a stop. my legs are arching. i can feel my heart hitting against my ribs with jackhammer's ferocity. it's not fear. but exhaustion. it just goes on and on. i can feel the rapid beats in my temple. i'm such a disappointment. i wanted to aim for a non-stop run of 4.8km. i've failed. totally. disgrace.

to think of it. i've already ran 3km, before i stopped. it's more than usual. i cant just stop there. i must outbest myself. even if i overwore myself, it's worth it. my early determination. it's finally the end. i stopped thrice. and finished the run in 25min 11s. the eruption in my head, the tired feets. i was completely fagged. completely. the first view of the reservoir, has now became a blur image. i was almost losing consciousness. did i threw away my disgusted memories away during the run? my past memories. how people had betrayed me, how people had neglected me, how people had ignored me, how people had opposed me, how people had rejected me, how people had comments about me...

my worn-out look gave all an impression of myself. i walked the 'long' distance back home. i felt...lonely. to be the loneliest guy in the world is not a bad idea.. afterall..

the ugly me.

our class-tee~

the lonely sunglass. for lonely people like me.

2007-04-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

ytd, i duno wad happen to me. i jus happened to be depressed. not during the games carnival, but after the it. i felt this great obstacle. i tried to overcome it. but it doesnt seemed to be working. it struck at me. i was stupefied. the moments of laughters. the moments of sorrowfullness. they all just flashed past my mind. i wanted to stop myself from continuing thinking of these by standing rooted to the ground, but, apparently, my feet continued to move briskly. they just couldn't stop moving. why is this happening? moreover, i'm getting further away from all my fwens. i could not look back. its as though my feet wanted to bring me somewhere. a place whr i desired. a place whr i looked forward to. a place whr i placed my hopes. a place. a sacred one. i'm just recalling. wad good things, wad helpful things have i done in the past? i just cant imagine myself.

it started drizzling at 2.53pm. and rained quite haevily at 2.57pm. the guides n some scouts are rock climbing nw.. i think they probably have to stop due to the rain. just nw during meeting. me, weekang, xiaoli, darence were in the nccsea room. we were slacking. then juk fen came. they played soccer. then the most horrible thing happened. jukfen fought with darence. i was sort of earthstruck. i didn't do much. at first i was just watching. there's a reason behind this. not that i dun wan to help, ya noe..? then wk n xl asked me for help. i recovered frm my half-consciousness. my last time when i was involved in a fight.. was like in primary6 i tink. that time i was too young. violence was one thing that my fwens all have. but have they wondered, violence will solve problem wun they? i was still innocent. come to think of it, i've almost lost contact with all my pri sch fwens. that time, things were just easy coming. theres no sweat in doing anything. can play soccer freely, do things as we like. now? strictly taken care of. this is the difference between being a kid and an evolved kid, teenager. it was quite a bad experience being in a fight. why must they fight over such small matters? aint they just trying to play with one another? now in secondary sch, unlike pri, people gets stronger. will my injured hand be able to stop jukfen? his aggressiveness is just too overpowering. once we pulled him back, he empowered and forced himself forward in beating darence up. however. when then storm just stopped, when the clouds cleared, when the bright sunlight, once again, brought vision to the Earth, they will still be fwen. jukfen wanted to initial an apology to darence. he went looking around for him. well. a fwen is forever a fwen. maybe sometimes, one forced too hard on himself and others, that he lost his fwenships, and lost himself in the darkness. the bonds are even stronger now, with the scars of violence, with the memories of each other, flashing past right in the eyes.

now, the sky is really cleared. the sullen clouds had been removed. the ray of life shone brightly at us again. the trees are growing strong with the profuse sunlight. it's all over. the Earth is once again heated up. rainbows appear with the slightest amount of smiles.

isnt this cool? too bad dun hav the whole class.

yien sucking the index finger?

yien tio shot ar..? who is the murderer?

nikki, u crying ar? been rejected or something? my shoulder is here. you doesnt seemed to have red eyes leh.

so this is the mastermind out of my pictures in my phone. self-portrait of herself, her favourite move

amirul shielding kenneth.. lol. ~edited~

the process of an 'explosion'

i shall end here today. brighten up your day with a smile~ =) :)
take care~ with <3 my~

2007-04-13T18:14:00.000+08:00

On 13th April. Friday. 6.00pm. Love at the dolphin bay. i shall watch it. One of the nicest love story chinese show i'll ever watch. i wonder isit everyday.. hm..
i hate today. even though got games carnival to enjoy, i felt the dark hole within me.

2007-04-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

On 11th April, me, zh n wx went to play basketball after school. The court is just beside my house. At first, the court was vacant, not even a single soul was downstairs. With us, the court seemed more lively with the sound of ball bouncing. However, will i still be able to play basketball like before? now with me my injured hand, my accuracy drops to almost 0. the best i can do is a lay-up, a simple one will do. will my hand stay intact and alright at the end of the 'practice'?

After a while, zh was competing with wx. The fight, with zh using his heighty body and wx using just pure luck, seemed a tough one. with their different styles, wx doesn't stand a chance. with all the exhaustion, zh finally won. wx kept complaining about how 'im-bar' zh was, and how exhausting it was. he then shuffled off to the 'mama shop' to get a drink. leaving me and zh in the court, we continued practising until this small kid came AGAiN...

From my previous post, i mentioned that how nice it will be if i can
remained as a kid and let my imaginations run real wild. this kid is older
than the ones from my previous post. However, my wish to become a
kid again does not apply here. It was quite an unbelievable experience
to be there, just like the last time me and zh met him. A kid like him,
can consider sleeping in the hardwood coffin and remain there as long
as the world can last. He can shout all he wants, scream all he wants, at
least, a buffer zone is needed i supposed.

Recalling the past, I was like the most quiet guy, the most unsociable
guy who seemed to be living in my own world with diffident. i was like
being isolated in a tranquil environment with i live peacefully with no
such disturbance. i won't want to imagine myself being such an
arrogant, loud, atrocious, dogmatic, blatant kid like him. however, for
now, being a teenager, maybe things have changed.

He is just a kid. i always thought a kid is supposed to be cute? attracting
attention? He's there to prove me wrong huh? After he left, it was all
tranquil finally. Should it had been so peaceful all along, we could have
enjoyed ourselves. the drizzle brought down my mood slightly but the
lack of his presence is great enough to sustain my high. i just detest that
guy.

Today, during physics practical lesson, i managed to do the experiment
as fast as cheetah, not using legs but hands. Yien went playing with
water. the sparkling water flowed and splashed dramatically into the
sink. Reflection of light from the droplets refreshes one's mind. one drop
of water is good enough to just bring happiness. However, with yien
wasting water, going against the government's effort to conserve water,
the world is going down some day later. Water is an important source of
survival. Farmers need water for irrigation, for agriculture, how can yien
just waste water through a running tap? The glaciers and icebergs are
melting at a fast rate. It was in the news, that after 25 year later, i cant
remember is which country, that it may not be snowing anymore. With
global warming speeding up reactions, with people polluting and
destroying Earth, there's nothing i can do, but just wait. wait. and wait
till the day where it's finally time to leave.

During geography lesson, the most shocking thing that everybody or
maybe just me heard was that cherie was caught doing other things. its
was like once in a lifetime, that something like that will happen. It's so
skeptical about cherie being caught for such things, i believe that she
herself had an acute shock of her life. it sounds as though the world is
changing drastically.

While on the bus on my way home, yapseng, yien and jocelyn alighted.
The bus took off and drove past them.All three of them turned back to
look for the last glimpse of each other before being separated. Is it
proven that fwenships are quite strongly bonded? For a second look,
before separation, for the loniness around after leaving, a slight smile on
their faces were exposed when my eyes took screenshots. Unfortunately,
the bus went past someone... i didn't manage to catch a glimpse of her.
Unknowingly, i was caught sitting in the bus by her.

No fatE? 有缘无份？

Am i being played by fate?

perhaps, it's just destiny...FOR GOD SAKE.

Before reaching the interchange, at least i managed to waved at
Van.Poh. at the last bus stop. friendship is still the most important after
all. i just hope she does not mind me losing sight of her. yien's new trend of styles: hello-ing around, twisting around acting cute, emo-ing around. saying hello, a form of greeting, a form of respect. twisting around, giving people the acting cute face, can brighten one's life for the day. emo-ing around, just isolating himself, just like me. well... just remain as cool,yien. and of course, all. i think this time my english is much worst. lols.

take care all.~ this seems to be a very bad post.

stop staring so hard at me!~argh.~

2007-04-10T20:54:00.000+08:00

In the morning, everyone was trying to study every single pieces of notes on settlement for the test. As the day proceeds, strange things started to happen, and these happenings made me reflect hard on myself.

It was like while studying, when wx wanted to ask zh something, and hit him on his back, zh, in return, whacked wx back so hard that it could have cause slight injuries. zh seemed as though wx had owed him money in the previous life, whacked him like a father caning his child due to misbehaviour or maybe caught stealing.

i was wondering "what in the world has my fwens became?" "since when has zh became so violent? or perhaps i've been wandering about that i have became so 'out-dated' ? " As a result, wx became quite pissed and was wondering what he had done wrong. So, he lumbered off with a glum expression back to his seat. this resulted with no mood in continuing to study geography.

it was not long after wx had left the small congregation, that michelleaw came asking yi'en for some things. i can't remember what did she asked for, then yien answered one of her questions with the usual opposite answer. without any hesitation, mich lifted her hand n swung it with great force towards yien's head. my jaws were like, dropped at that very moment when this happened.

once again, i reflected to myself. "is that what friends are for? whacking each other so that to etch a deep impression? have i ever tried whacking someone that hard? if that is supposed to be true, then what about people who are involved in a fight? are they trying to make new friends?"

one more example is while everyone was on their way back to class after assembly, just outside General Office, yien pushed songyang without any reasons i supposed. Is it also one way to improve friendship? it has a high possibility that both parties will take it easy. Me, as a witness of this activity, and it's especially me, will think thoroughly like what i'm doing now. Violence is an act of aggression. Why is it that everyone has this kind of violent behaviour?

During fencing, the moment of excitements passed at the speed of light. the crucial moments when i finally had the chance to fence arrived. it was a rather bad decision to fence with yien. without any great efforts, i lost to yien unknowingly. it was as though i was a novice fencing with professional. with the defeat, i came alive. facing songyang was quite a brief, not that i am criticising him, but i had regained from the lousy behaviour i had during the fight with yien. next was zh. the cold sweat tickles down my throbbing temple. it will be a tough fight, a tough decision to attack, a tough decision to back off. i felt that during the 3 battles, i had improved great miles. maybe i was lacking confidence, but i pulled through and won zh instead. reading minds am i? the very moment when we were earthstruck, hesitation of the swift movements to make in every second. Seconds tickled by like the powdery sand of the ancient hourglass. with every points i made, i felt relieved. with every points he made, worries surrounded me like a heavy blanket. it was a very serious and important move to make, before checkmate.

visited the doctor after reaching home. while in the clinic, there were a few kids. there's one kid who was jumping about in front of his mother, she scolded him for not behaving. this reflects me once again, but in another way. how good will it be if i was still a child? i can have my free own thinking without any ones comments. jumping around, at free will, with the laughters of kids. the satisfactory on his face made me recall the young moments. then there is one girl who had been taken temperature with the ear thermometer. she was fascinated by the thermometer, with the 'beep' and also being inserted into the ear. she has such innocent thoughts that nobody really bothers about. she can be wondering what is that, can be interested by the sound. would any one of us ever be fascinated by the small thermometer just to take our temperature?

i finally finished this post. haha. thanks for reading. bye~

2007-04-09T18:16:00.000+08:00

these two pictures took on sat during meeting.. lol. so cool.. playing with fire.. i almost became a black man.

hav u ever imagined being watched in bus by the bus driver? nw with the newly installed cameras....... u cannot do anything stupid!

here this guy....biting the nails beside me..ewww...

go further away frm mii! i thot i said we aint fwen?

blah.. nth to write.. off to study geog. zz =D

2007-04-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

lol. sy wan help me blog sia... so lame. yay yay~ went out with pau, jj, kit, sy, n of course mavis =) nt of course la.. is jus coincidence? since she nth to do. x) n of course. usual me. look at them do things while i emo. wk n jj keep bullying pau.. then mavis..hm. roam arnd herself. went to book shop..go sonyericson shop. forgot still got whr le. i jus kept watching. every single moves. wad was i doin? oh ya.. the sweet machine in the arcade.. lol. one couple so crazy until duno spent how much money..won how many times. n one full bag of sweet...(red color de big bag).

then slack arnd . watch beany guy fooling arnd on the screen. go home. well.. at least one whole day ended. n i feel that its good theres this outing. i feel very different. presence of swt angel.. its really very very different.

how i hope that it could

last forever at that instance

the very moment

whr i can feel it

the pressure on myself

the hesitation i made

the courage i brought out

the shyness i hid

or maybe the other way arnd

when i jus couldnt speak

continuous forces of whether to

open or close my mouth

hidden courage

led to no result

a disappointment to myself

i'll keep it to myself.
the archangel will look over me

thats all.. no quote le. run out liao .xD haha. anw as 'u' told me to.. i shall put this only pic i took..

i really enjoyed today. thx ppl.

2007-04-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

a relax day~ a not relax day though..

got amaths test that made me exploded.

chemistry test that made me

burn violently after exploding.

then, no homework. yay ^^

no test in the following day.

relax abit.

take in a deep breath

exhale..

imagine that that is

the last breath u will have

appreciate it.

feel your body absorbing the air

give yourself a rest.

a rest is good enough

stay calm. and think of the most important

personS/thingS/events?

it seems as though the world is getting destroyed

recall all the past memories

esp. the very important moments of your life.

fwens?

(i tink this is wad i always do..when i alone or

dun feel like talking, i'll keep silence n be deep in thots...)

Let it go

things will work out somehow

tried your best.

its alrite already.

i've tried to make myself audible.

brought out my courage.

give in my best

even if i've failed.

opportunities still lie ahead

i'll grab them

make myself satisfied

before there is no more chances.

which is about.a few months time...

A man must not deny his manifest abilities, for that is to evade his obligations.

William Feather

2007-04-01T01:09:00.000+08:00

happy april fool day!!!!!

hm.. right on 12am sharp.
i sent duno how many sms.
n talked on msn.
cos msn works at a faster rate...
the first one to expose it is...Teri!
ahHA! can go visit her blog.
then tried on yongquan n songyang.
yq's one is perfect.
sy one is jus..rubbish..go random with me..
then for sms. linda is the first to reply me
got TRICKED, but then she was laughing..
then weiting..well.. sooo deeply tricked
then of course..the very good at exposing ppl one..
syjia.. said the same thing to me..
i thot wad...
so.. she exposed me too.
then baoxian. obviously wun get tricked..cos she noes..
back to msn!
wx got tricked by my little story..HAHA
then back to sms, josephine got tricked TOO!

then michelle sms-ed me abt 3am...lols.

of course she's nt fooled.

then jingyi..hm..she nv reply me last sms..

paulina..exposed it..

mendy lerh..very the GOOD one ar..

a good reply frm her..x)

then of cos..sara. tricked. quite badly.

jevonne. er.. each other trying on each other...

mavis.. hm.

sophia..sort of tricked at first..then later found out.

she said tt she's smart.

fiona.. Xposed..

tina Xposed

hm. mayb still waiting for a few more reply.

lala~

:) ;) :D ;D =) =D ^^

and of course..

i'll love everyone of u as a

fwen/good fwen/great fwen/wads greater than great? fwen of minE!

erm. pls dun feel offended.

i may be too much

so forgive me. xp

The greatest lesson in life is to know that even fools are right sometimes

Winston Churchill

here some pictures. tt i edited when i bored n lonely.

a cat posing infront of camera. n jus right,took it in the mid

then the emo guy frm previous post

added with some effects

xD probably really bored

Cya PPL! happy april fool once again!

take care.~

2007-03-28T18:46:00.000+08:00

hiieya all!! =D =)) ^^ xD XD

monday: after school supposed to be games carnival.. but cos my class did not hav any games to play tt involved me, so i'm free n is supposed to study for the geog test the next day. then wx intended to eat lunch first. then discussing..discussing. i jus wan go home n study.. then duno how come suddenly someone suggest to go zh hse.. then the ppl like wx, yien, ys became so enthu to go his hse, chased aft me n zh hu r goin home...so in the end...

instead of going home, *we went his hse..
instead of me skipping lunch, *we bought lunch
instead of studying, *we were playing.
instead of reading the geog notes, *we looked at the scrabble board n pokemon cards.
instead of sitting on chair nerding, they 'taupok-ing'
instead of memorising geog notes, they saying scary story
instead of reaching home by 3, i reached home by 7

then reach home. study here n there..then like 'oh well, the geog test is crazy'.

some guy emo-ing in class..

supposed to be a cute cat slping.
so its nt cute anymore because
it woke up n looked like this at the camera..

some guy playing with hula-hoop

nxt day. geog test. screwed. reached home at arnd 6pm. 7+pm need to leave for tuition. dun feel like studying. bathe,eat. on9 talking to bx. then went for tuition. tata~~ another day finish.

today~ study physic.study n study~ geog lesson. "the first question was badly done, the highest mark is 2.5 out of 5" oh..w0w..in a lose-lose situation..english lesson..ms lian went out off class cos angry of some ppl. then go library. we oso go library. then return back to class. continue lesson. she din even go through the situational writing.. then physic test. well. nt easy for me.. then being the physic rep.slowly count the papers.. then immediately go for english test. ok..fail.. then wait for wx at gate..drizzling.

the sky is crying for me, (isit?)
i was wondering..abt something..
something that concerns me a lot a lot.
theres only one impt 'thing' that i can ponder on
only one
very special to me.
perhaps, its a living thing

puff! wakey wakey!
then i reached interchange.
went to c doctor again n
get my hand checked up again.
n so..its bandaged again.
then went home. n here i am!

some interesting pictures here. sorry only for chinese.

Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.

anonymous

2007-03-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

today, went school with my cutiie little bandaged RIGHT hand. then ppl came asking wad happen..one by one... i'm so delighted. i still hav so many fwen concerning abt me. or isit jus tt they saw my bandage n asked wad happened for the sake of knowing wad happened. am i feeling abit of miserable? i jus wana noe..

anw. for those who actually came forward to ask, i, hereby thank you for ur concern.
its a pleasure to know that i'm nt alone after all.
~angels~
n i love every one of u who's really concerned abt me.

my miserable hand. i'm a right hander.

it rained at 5.30pm sharp on 23rd march 2007

its when i ended my post.

2007-03-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

this is the master playing piano!~yi'en~

look how serious he is. xD

n this is michelle beside the pianist

she claimed to be a talent.

well..if she really tries, maybe.

=D =))

the games carnival this year is very cham..hais. somemore injuried my hand. sob. ~zururzuru~

2007-03-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

here yien. everytime i go ur blog i get this. ur song i oso duno y cannot open. lOL. hais. today nth much happen. i only noe its Cherie's burthdaa. so wish her happy birthday again here. kay ppl. nitey. buais.

2007-03-19T17:47:00.000+08:00

hais. jus recovered frm fever n reluctantly went to school... somemore have to run 2.4km.... =.= walked the first round.. then started running the 2nd round.. when i started ruinning.. my legs are pain. i think it's due to the leg sprain last few weeks ago.. n now i felt pain running.. die alrdy. how to pass napfa like tt.. how to run the relay of gamescarnival. whoever read this. tts a hint. i nt running the relay for the class anymore. xP then some boring lessons after lessons. then at last the amaths lesson. some chimchim differentiation again.. after that lunch time. i sat between those hungry 'ghosts' n watched... nxt got physics lesson.. heres the most interesting few hours of the day,i believe. but of course.. firstly, the teacher is as boring as ms lian. lols.. no secondly. then me wx n yien doing something tt i shld nt write here. then..sophia kept drawing SOME ""special"" thingy on the 'table', which i oso kept leaning forward taking a closer look at wad is it that she drawing. n perhaps, its something that i'm the only one most interested in tt.. anw, sophia has had her blog closed,i hope i'm nt wrong, coz i cannot go her blog anymore. so perhaps can delete her link. abt wad she drew,i'll keep it a secret. n i hope she oso wun go arnd telling ppl...zzz.. <~~secrets are meant to be kept~~> anw. dun bother go asking anyone abt it..zz oh. somemore.. during the 5min break. i went to the other side of the audi to borrow tings. then syjia n baoxian said they know a secret...n may i noe wads the secret? dots. tts all of the SPECIAL case of my life of today..

NICE TRY EVERYONE..KEEP ME OCCUPIED.

tts all. buais all. thank you for reading my boring post. enjoy ur day =DDD =)) xDD byes!!

If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.

Nora Roberts

2007-03-17T17:27:00.000+08:00

i having a fever... quite cool. how long ago did i had a fever..? i shall nt write long.. but here i apologise indirectly to wx. jus hope u read this zz. lala. the weather is fine...lols. no quote for this post coz i using laptop..lazy to on com to find. buais all then. cya. take care.

2007-03-15T13:11:00.000+08:00

perhaps,animals are the best partners.

today supposed to go out with the 'gang'. but then i gav a last minute 'no' due to some reasons.. to me, it doesnt matter wad happens..once i feel that the world is going against me. i shall stay at home alone. without anyone's concern. i'll b left alone.

its seems as though time flies..

no matter its outside or at home.

the time flows at the same rate.

the shadow hidden beyond me is holding me back.

should this b a problem of myself,

i'll try my best to subdue it.

its nt only me being alone, its the way i think,

the way i felt.

nobody will understand the true self of me..

shld there b a split personality,

i will get rid of the side thats evil,

thats destroying my life.

theres only a way...

perhaps, even animals felt my feelingss.

True friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost.

Charles Caleb Colton

2007-03-12T19:07:00.000+08:00

yoyo people!! i'm back frm the 'short' job week! weeeEE~~~~this year job wk was coollll...

early in the morning.. woke up frm my sweety dream..got changed n went to skool..then waiting for bus driver to come.. too bored then took this pic. lols. the orangish sky caught my attention. i glazed at the beautiful sky motionlessly while recalling of the tiring process of jobweek in the previous years.. (hm..will i pass english with this sentence?)

so..reach school,get jobweek card.n started roaming arnd...we walked arnd katong area..n the first job is to clean some railings..tt was nt bad..the hse was quite nice. that was a good start of the day~

then wanted to try entering the condos along meyer road. but then din succeed. the security din allow us to go inside do job week.. at that moment when i walked along tt road.. i was thinking of visiting sara.. but then.. i couldnt rmbr her unit number. so..i din wana disturb her by asking her for her unit..only noe which condo she lived in..lols.then darence suggested goin to cheeyang's hse. but i dun really noe hu is he..

i only know that he is some rich richrichrich guyy..~i cant imagine that his hse i SOO big that i was totally amazed..my mouth was wide open once i stepped in, n wide throughout while exploring his house.....he n his siblings each hav a room.. he seems to hav all the things in the world..his room is so neat n tidy n hav a lot of things that i had wanted, but i'm nt as fortunate as him.. he oso has a mini fridge in his room. i believe there are somemore fridge around. maybe total is 2big n 2 mini one..IN BARRR... the hse is so big that they even got intercom.. jus make a call n dun nid walk arnd the hse...i'm totally speechless. anyway.his hse was sort of the artistic. got some interesting figures or portrait, etc. here are some pictures i took~ shh..dun tell him~

this one is found right infront of the door step~

this one nt nicely taken..but i'll still put it up.

this is a swimming pool i tink.

phew.. after that.. do a lot of other things..then return back to school.. wahseh.. that was the critical moment.. the process i shall not divulge. we went to watch movie in the audi with ncc.. then after that we chat arnd until 2plus then sleep. then i took this picture.

ziheng n some other ncc guy are the ones playing basketball downstairs

nxt morning, of course doing the same thing..at night return..then GO HOME! wahaha. wad a camp some of us had..=)) then we go eat some western food at katong. seriously,although quite ex for me, the food was nice. i wanted to take pic but then didn't. i enjoyed tat night.. so sleepy when i reached home.. slept well...nxt morning again, got physics lesson n english compre lesson..but then both r at the same time.. then wx told me to go for english.. i was SUPER late la.. i tink i was late for 45 min... i woke up at 9.30am n left my hse at abt 9.55am.. enter the bus in interchange at arnd 10.10am...reach school abt 30minutes later..then walk to class. luckily the teacher din scold. melson n other guy was jus right behind me! LOL xDD i realised smth.. i am getting fatter after drinking so many cups of oreo ice blend.. moreover.. i'm totally broke liao.. nw my hands are tight.. nid to spare my expenditure liao.. okay.. end of post. lols. take care all~ buaix. miss all

Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.

Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

2007-03-09T16:53:00.000+08:00

added to previous post: "do things step by step! reflect on the thinking process!" n of course... if we followed wad tkh always say... ur results will be good.

there it goes.. tkh will draw on the front page praising abt the result u got or encourage u to do better. =)) isnt this a good thing? my sis said tt he is like a primary school teacher,sometimes even 'chop' a smiley face on the paper. (no offence, 'cher..) my sis jus..hais.

after sch..i roamed abt the sch..then started playing cubes..2 tables of ppl playing cubes..lols

A word of encouragement during a failure is worth more than an hour of praise after success.

anonymous X)

syjia~~

yien~ n songyang~

then some of us went to english lessons..others go for ccas.. so many ccas have camps. tmr still got somemore. lols. back to the interesting english lesson..haha. then won a packet of oreo for completing the crossword..actually i din helped much. xD my english is still as bad.. *limited english vocab..*

I am not discouraged because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward.

thomas edison

isnt this cute?? =DDDDD hais nw hav to get ready for tmr camp.~so few days cannot blog. ><>

post edited~syjia pic added~

2007-03-08T21:58:00.000+08:00

Sample Question: When a small piece of metallic sodium is added to an aqueous solution of copper(II)sulphate, a colourless gas is evolved and a blue precipitate is formed. Give the names of the gas and the precipitate, and explain the reactions that lead to their formation.

At the first glance, does the question makes no link? where did the gas n ppt come from? now go back n have a closer look. if still cant get the answer....then perhaps try again.. i believe anyone frm my class can get it on the 2nd look. but PROs like those top few may jus get it on the first glance.

"this is how to differentiate an A1 n A2" " the concept is there.. but the answering techniques is nt there" etc..... these are wad my class always hears during chem lessons.. its quite true. x)
who can tell me the answer? taggy~ =)

2007-03-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

waaaa..... today the teachers bombarded us with the suPEr Super SIAN homework... especially SS.... got to write like abt 3 essays or so.. together with history will be like 4... somemore ss still got Source-based qns.. ++ chem, maths.. i tink tts all.. tmr i tink still got more to come.. like geog..etc.. hais.. thursday is the most sian day of the whole week... got almost all the subjects... except chinese,english, amaths, n of course PE..however, got the amaths lecture today...so i only the language lessons dunch hav..wadthehell man.. ALL so boring! then jus nw the end of lecture..duno how come syjia's fullscrap got to wk's hands.. n this is wads drawn on the cardboard.. i took this picture immediately...b4 the teacher saw me..

isnt this cool? there are tiny cartoon-like human drawn oso.. if i din rmbr wrong. they include sj,bx,sy,zh,wk,wx,yien n me.. lols. nt bad isnt it.. quite nice. art a1 liao.. haa XD its abit blur cos i enlarged it

then went to the bustop at tkg there. i realised my fone had nt been set to silent mode when i was in sch..n it rang so loud in the open while walking to the bustop.....how lucky am i? i saw my primary sch fwen, yuteng. but then i din approach her. probably..alrdy strangers. she may nt recognise me anymore. too bad. i'm jus being too unsocial. xD then carrying the HEAVY books..home safely nw.

this is my life.

a lonely i've

i may noe how to control it.

but i may nt noe how to apreciate it

if i even tried to leave it alone

i'll jus be alone

avoiding the fact that i'm lone

it just cant last long

i'll try my best to believe..

only if...

~picture reduced~post updated~

2007-03-07T20:29:00.000+08:00

i think i recovered abit. i'm bored again... jus happened to watched the tv for a while..
Sophia Road around Douby Gaunt there has the cheapest parking fee at that area on sat ($2 only) n oso its free on sunday... Sophia~ u so popular arh?? =DD
probably i'm really too bored. zz nth else to post. XD

2007-03-07T17:21:00.000+08:00

according to msyap, i'm fat..i agree to her totally.. she said skinny ppl will feel the earthquake tt happened ytd... n i din feel it.. so I'M FAT!today is quite a fast day to pass.. everything went well.. except for the very last thing i did in school. the english test is jus killing people like me.. i could jus get a FAIL... the teachers can dun bother marking it.. i can jus commit suicide.. listless for nw.

i nid to calm myself..

this is too craz

i'm behaving as though i'm alone in this world

many things flashed past my mind

while i sitting in the bus

i only thing i noe nw.

is tt

i'm lonely

perhaps there could b somebody hu i can borrow the shoulder..

its seems tt..i can jus jump..

2007-03-06T16:40:00.002+08:00

Source: Straits times. Home. tuesday, march 6 2007

"...was saved from certain death by a quick-witted commuter who hit the emergency stop plunger in the station."

"he was arrested by police on suspicion of drug related activities and is out on bail."

"looking forward into building platform screen doors and floor-to-ceiling glass panels, which will convert the above ground, open-air stations into enclosed air-conditioned ones"

tt man actually survived.. its a miracle. moreover a train was reaching the station.. i'm oso looking forward to the enclosed mrt station! weee.... =DD

2007-03-06T16:40:00.001+08:00

Source: Straits Times, Home, tuesday march 6 2007
"Woman's fiance jailed, fined for beating a dog"
"...decided to teach the dog a lesson. It was leashed to a grille and he struck it with the bamboo pole."
"Chewie,the dog, suffered a fracture on its left front paw. After it was operated on, it was put on painkillers and needed several months to get better."

"Sales manager Pam Teck Soon, 31, ended up sentenced yesterday to a week in jail and was fined $3000."

Dogs are man's best friends, n tt guy did this to the Siberan husky.. he shld jus go n die.. the dog is nw so pathetic.. sobbss.

2007-03-04T19:56:00.000+08:00

wee.. had a sumptuous dinner~ =D got yusheng leh! messed up~ haha n there it goes throwing them arnd. n oso CrabS! haha! DUN DROOL pls! =D the crabs are bought frm the stall along still road near school! my dad said tt it was a long 'q'..

n then my bro had to rush back to army... chionging here n there..~~ n my sis ..went clearing somethings... n found this..

this is a discovery.. skeleton of a dinosaur descendant... liZard brother~~ =DDD isnt it amazing? i could hav jus send it to the museum.. mayb can get rich~ ~dreaming alot~

dun vomit!! wahaha. its real okayy..

tts all.. buaix~ study time!

2007-03-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

yoyo~! i went to bugis with my family to celebrate the good results of my brother's alvl, n together with aunt. we went to one tt had steamboat but was full.. then waited for 15min. then it started to hav slight drizzle. so we decide to go seoul garden!! its was expensive! so we ate to the fullest~ grab all the food n stuff them into our stomach~ haha. i even had a dessert myself! yummy~ BLOATED

then we walk arnd..at abt 9pm.. all the e shops were closing..so..jus continue walking until we reach the carpark. n i found one interesting n CUTE PIGGGY in the middle of the place. (looks like anyone of u looking at the picture).haha.lols XD
then my brother wanted to go pp to play pool with his fwens. so my dad drove him there. i even lent him my wallet with 17dollars...n now reached home n wrote these~ ! tts all~ buaix~ nitey =DD

2007-03-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

took these frm my cousins hse. n took pic of them. quite interesting huh? maple charc.. lols. printed on red packets.. cool. upload them cos i'm bored.zz

2007-03-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

today's a fine day in the morning..but then started to rain at abt 3? for today..~abit more interesting than usual. tkh return us the quizzes we've done some times ago.. n i had a shock of my life.. first time i saw the word 'see me' on my chem paper.. however... realised i nt the only one.. when i went to c him, saw mavis coming in.. then i wad like "oh well..i'm nt tt bad aft all" XD geog lesson was quite a rush? yap scribbled on e board n i duno wad she writing.. n she went searching here n there for duno wad olvl thingy..during recess. i chiong abit the chem paper tt tkh gav today n supposed to hand in on monday..but then nxt week got hell lot of tests. finish hw first ba. then other ppl..as usual..~GAmBLE~ (hope dun get caught one day) chinese was rather chem hw chionging lesson.. i was nt even listening to her.nt even abit.. all i was doin was doin chem..n she dun care abt us(me n zh). then physic. first thing is.. tooo gooo gettt the physsiccc wkbkk... =.= they were given a 'short' break while i get the books. yien:"walk slower!" -.- slowly hopping my way thru to outside the staffroom.(leg injured) physic lesson was like a brisk..for the first time.. i seems to be enjoy tt lesson for no reason. =DD probably in good mood.

aft sch. went pp with wk n wx n had lunch at yoshinoya. wahsia.. i no money liao..zz. went back to sch.. then oso duno do wad..play basketball like 5min then go for eng lesson. tt woman is good. i cannot admit the fact tt mslian is so BORING. although good.. but too fast liao lar.. i abit de slow. sitting beside a pro (yi'en) luckily.. n then.. its went "pli pla pli pla pli pla" raining cats n dogs..aft lesson. we wait under rotunda.. the rain doesnt seems to be getting smaller.. then i watched the npcc. bored~ then..then.. they say the side gate was opened.. its like..wasted abt 15min for nth.. although got shelter.. they r of nt much use..my bandaged leg managed to walk thru n took bus33~ n was meddling with... kept losing to wx. i'm jus a noob. pls.

tts all for today~ my first actual post~ lols. ><

2007-02-28T20:16:00.001+08:00

yoyo bloggy. welcome myself~~!! =DD